Super Junior’s Heechul wore his heart on his sleeve as he expressed hurt from reading comments from his detractors. The idol posted a long and emotional message on Instagram that touched on the hateful messages being left for him on his social media accounts and how the negativity is making his heart heavy with disappointment.

Based on an English translation from Koreaboo, Heechul begins his Instagram post by addressing how the insults have affected him: “While looking at the comments haha.. I see some not good and ridiculous comments. That’s why I don’t read comments. Although I have a lot to say, I am old enough to at least look like I have matured, so I will hold back. Human beings are weird. Let’s say there are 100 supporters and only 1 insulters. But that 1 person always bothers me. Whether it is on the Internet or in the reality.. Maybe it is my greed to want be loved by everyone, or my anger, I am still confused. In relation to my personality, it’s probably closer to the latter.”

 댓글들을 보는데 허허.. 보기 좋지 않은, 황당한 댓글들이 몇개 있군요. 이래서 댓글을 안읽는건데.... 할 말은 많지만 제 나이도 있고 철든 티라도 내야하니 참도록 하죠. 사람이 참 이상합니다. 나를 응원해주는 사람이 100이라고 치면, 욕하는 사람은 1정도인데 그게 유독 신경이 쓰인단 말이죠. 넷상이건 현실에서건.., 모두에게 사랑 받고 싶은 욕심인지, 아니면 분노인지 아직도 헷갈립니다. 제 성격이라면 후자쪽에 가깝겠지만ㅋㅋ제가 트위터를 탈퇴하고 다시 instagram을 시작할 때 많이 고민했습니다. 저 역시 SNS로 많은 이슈와 논란을 만들었었기 때문에.... 그러다 문득 든 생각이 '그냥 나 좋아해주는 팬들이랑 노는 공간이라고 생각하자' 였습니다. 그래서 사회적인 발언이나 예전 미니홈피, 트위터처럼 논란의 요지가 있는 얘기들은 쓰지 않았던거구요. 이게.. 시간이 지나니 언젠가부턴 다 좋은게 좋은거라고 마냥 웃으며 살고싶네요^-^ 여러분들도 웃으세요. 남을 욕하는 것도 스릴있고 재밌겠지만, 항상 웃고 즐겁게 살려고 하면 그것만큼 행복한게 없습니다. 즐거운 설날 보내시고 안전벨트 꼭 매세요. #개똥같은소리하고있네

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Then the idol brings up a bit of his past, revealing that he had to deactivate his Twitter account before due to a similar problem where fans voiced out their critical reactions to his posts. He planned to make Instagram a less divisive platform for his fans so he had stopped posting commentaries on society and stories that would cause controversy.

“When I left Twitter and started Instagram, I pondered a lot because I too have caused a lot of issue and controversy through my SNS… Then I suddenly thought ‘Let’s just think of this as a place where I play with my fans who likes me.’ That’s why I stopped writing anything related to the society or stories that may cause controversy like when I used mini-hompi and Twitter. This.. is that once time passes good is good and I just want live with smiles.”

He ended the heartfelt message with an encouragement for his fans to live more happily and focus on things that make them smile, instead of dwelling on the negativity: “Everyone smile. It may be thrilling to insult others, but there is no bigger happiness than smiling and enjoying your life. Have a fun happy new year and don’t forget your safety belt.”