[Trigger Warning/Content Warning: Sexual Assault, Anxiety, Mental Health Issues]

On Tuesday, singer-songwriter Jang Jae In (also know as Jang Jane) reveals her painful past and trauma as a sexual assault victim and survivor on her Instagram account. Because of this experience, she shared that she had mental and physical health issues, including seizure, anxiety, shortness of breath, uncertainty, and anorexia starting between ages 17 to 18.

The singer, whose symptoms have improved now through constant psychological treatment, took her experiences out to social media and the public to comfort and stand along with the victims who suffered the same wounds as hers.

     

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  A post shared by 장재인 (@jangjane_) on Sep 21, 2020 at 9:29am PDT

In her post, she revealed heartbreaking confessions including the perpetrator, which was caught a year later after the incident. Jae In shared that the hardest part of the incident was the child who assaulted her was actually a victim of bullying and he was just forced to do it to her as the group of bullies apparently promised him that they will stop bothering him if he will do it.

"The hardest part at the time was that the child was also suffering from bullying by other children. If he's also a victim, what am I? What have I been through? The thought of it was the most heartbreaking thing."

Here's the full text of Jang Jae In's Instagram post:

Today, I'm leaving a message to celebrate the end of the recording of an old album and the improvement of the psychotherapy I've been working on like a night's sleep. It took 11 years to bring this up.

My first seizure was when I was 17 years old, and when I was 18, extreme anxiety, seizures, shortness of breath, insomnia, and anorexia began to follow. (Maybe people who went through the same thing with this alone, you know what happened, you've had a hard time.)

 He said he was treating, but it wasn't easy to find the right doctor, and at that time he thought going to the hospital was a big flaw, so it wasn't any better. And the environment I've been living in would have played a big part in the symptoms. (Mommy, sorry. But now that I've decided to sing, you know?)

 I want to be a little happy when I'm in my twenties, 24~29 years old. It was, but it doesn't work just because you decide to act. Even if you want to think about good things and live to the fullest, your mind keeps falling apart when you get sick.

 These days, when I grew up with such a long time of illness and now it's part of me. 1.First of all, I put down the word happiness itself.

 2.I admit that I've been forced to live a life of low self-esteem.

 3. More than anything, I've been on medication for a year. (Before that, taking a long three-month dose of medicine was all I had to do.)

 When I was 18 years old, I decided to be honest with my stories because I gained strength from the people I did so. When I was young, I was able to stand up and sing well even after going through the same thing as me or other painful events.

 Like I did, wouldn't the events that I went through be meaningful if I could convey just a little bit of the courage I received? I think that thought caught me even in the worst situation. Even now, I think it would be nice if I could do that.

Following her first post, she wrote a follow-up post thanking everyone due to the amount of support and comfort that she received after her first revelations. She also hinted to her fans and supporters that the album she's working on will start with the incident.

   

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 A post shared by 장재인 (@jangjane_) on Mar 2, 2019 at 2:28am PST

Meanwhile, Jae In opened up more about her feelings and conveyed her inner emotions, including the idea of having someone who could tell her "it's not your fault" when the incident happened.

Thus, being inspired by a singer who went through the same thing as her, she would like to continue singing and wash off all the shame and guilt along with other victims through her music.

   

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