Former AOA Kwon Mina Reveals She Attempted to Take Her Own Life Again

[Trigger Warning/Content Warning: Bullying, self-harm, mention of suicide] 

In an Instagram post shared on August 6, Thursday, former AOA member Kwon Mina revealed she attempted to take her own life again after seeing a message from FNC Entertainment.

The idol shared a graphic photo of her slashed wrists, which could potentially be triggering for some viewers. The caption of her post reads,

"I need to let this out. Before anything, to my fans and the public, please don't be worried. I just did a photo shoot that I really enjoyed. This is happening because of something that transpired with an FNC Entertainment official on KakaoTalk.

The unnie that they said would be apologizing when she came in, was she really apologizing to the person she was supposed to? Don't spread lies. After apologizing, they said they would look into it. After that, they said she was begging for an apology?

If the person who had come to apologize has her eyes that wide open and is looking for a knife, even if I can't remember the way they had talked to me, I cannot forget those eyes, what kind of apology would I accept there? I gave up on it,

Anyways, I was shocked to see a message from an FNC Entertainment official, so I tried to take my own life again, but my manager's younger sibling stopped me and took me to a university hospital. I cut myself so much at this point that I have lost all the nerves on my wrist, so they did not give me anesthesia and they just stitched me up with a needle and thread. They gave me some painkillers to help endure the pain, and the doctors had a hard time. It made me feel guilty. What do you like about me? My previous manager is still hanging around me, as if they were my guardian...

At the end of that unnie's stament, I do not know what pushed her to do it, but she changed her apology from 'to Mina' to 'an apology to Mina'. Why is it as if she is apologizing to my dog? She said she would retire from the entertainment industry but it seems as if she will just bounce back when things quiet down. I can see it happening. I suffered for more than 11 years. But all over Instagram and YouTube... people are asking why am I like this? At least I did not lie to her, yet she says she does not know what I have been through. I have nothing to hide.

She posted that it was 'fiction', but her manager swooped in and told her to take it down. My manager told me to take some medicine and have a good sleep, and FNC Entertainment said they were having a hard time because of that person. They provided me with a psychiatrist and I wondered if they genuinely did care about me, but is it not illegal for them to talk about me to their friends and to others? I think they told my stories to other people. I never complained about my debt as a trainee, my contract, or payment issues. I only spoke about the things I were asked to answer, but that person who asked is speaking about it on their own. What do you want my parents to say to their daughter after being called in? My parents only came the first time and never came again and unlike other, we have not heard any complaints.

I have fainted out dozens of times from stress and I still pass out, but I will work to getting better and living my life. I am working hard on that, but whether it be because of FNC Entertainment or that unnie, is it that hard to give a sincere, honest apology? I was once a person who did not think that much and was bright and happy, yet now I am depressed, I have social anxiety, and I take sleeping pills. I used to sleep for 15 hours and day, and now I can only manage to sleep for an hour.

Are you living well? I am sure you don't care about me over their in your big company. If you cared, then you would have at least contacted me at least once. I fear you think I have gone psycho or I'm a crazy bitch. Anyways, you already missed the right timing or a sincere apology, so please take care of your current trainees, actors, and the seniors so no one ends up like me. When someone say they do not want to renew their contract because of someone, you should ask them what's wrong, what is difficult? Do not just tell me about the next event or the next CF. When were were discussing contract renewals, the CEO said, "You aren't paying for your psychological expenses, right?" So I paid for it all.

Until now, I am having a hard time, but there are also lots of people cheering me on. The staff at my current agency look at me as a person, so I am very encouraged. There is someone on YouTube who saw me cut my wrist and said I was just looking for attention. If the person who is saying that is a third party, then sure, they can say what they want, because it must look odd as an outsider. But I've only said a small fraction of what I had endured for the past 11 years, there are things I haven't told my friends of 11 years and things I haven't told even my family. Yes, I want attention, you're right, I'm an attention seeker, but do you even have interest in me? Let me tell you this. If you want attention, you should want to die. You can kill yourself with self-harm. I have tried many many times to end my life. I feel resentful towards those who say I shouldn't do this, and came to save me when everything was hard and I wanted to die. My family is scared and crying, wondering what sins my family had done to have me passed out and taken away with slashed and bloody wrists.

I am upset, angry, and I cannot even sleep. Why am I still the one hurt, who should I confess to? Who should pay for ruining me? I hope there won't be anyone who ends up like me in the future."

Mina revealed that she left AOA due to the bullying she received by a member, to which Mina at first did not name. Former AOA member and leader Jimin then posted the word "Fiction" on her Instagram Story, subtly stating that Mina's words were all false. This led Mina to reveal the member who bullied her was Jimin and that she endured a lot of pain during her time with the group.

Mina also revealed that when her father passed away, she made sure she could complete activities, taking minimal days off to mourn, and to not ruin the mood of the group so that she could not anger Jimin. But when it was the latter's father who passed away, all of Jimin's activities were canceled and her family had the VIP room in the hospital.

AOA members and their manager went to visit Mina with the intentions of apologizing. However, Jimin allegedly acted inappropriately, threatening to kill herself while wielding a knife and then ultimately giving Mina an insincere apology, per Mina's words. Jimin then went on Instagram to say she apologized and had begged for Mina's forgivenes, to which Mina refused, saying that Jimin's apology was insincere and she was instead gaslighted her by saying she does not recall any of the harassment. Mina included that all of the people at her house, the AOA members and FNC Entertainment managers and staff, had sided with Jimin.

FNC Entertainment eventually announced that Jimin was dismissed from the group and would retire from the entertainment industry.